Knock, knock

:-)

Was just checking if this blog still exists. Hehe! Not making any updates yet but I was surprised to see that there were some unpublished posts. So there...yun na lang muna. :-)

No one's reading this anyway.

Bored

Tic-tac, tic-tac.

Am just waiting for the clock to strike six and I'm outta here.

Sooo bored.

Can't think of any title :-)

Would you believe that I have a total of 6 absences in almost four months? Yep, you read it right. The last one happened yesterday. But, and this is a big but(t), it was unintentional (and so are my other absences). ;-)

It so happened that we didn’t have water and we did order around 7 in the morning but the delivery came around noon already. Sayang, half day na lang sana ako if dumating agad yung water. I’m kinda sad coz I wanted to have a perfect attendance for at least this month. Oh, well…there’s still September, October and so on. Wish ko lang.

I actually got bored at home. I wanted to use the pc but my brother wouldn’t let me since he had a lot of things to do also. I ended up sleeping until around 7pm. Good decision bro, hehe!

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I met with Mathet and Maiden last Friday. We had dinner first and updated each other about our lives. Or it was more like them updating me. Sorry girls. Same old, same old. :-)

I'm also sorry coz I had to leave early. But hey, 'twas really nice seeing old friends again. Can't wait for the next time.

And oh yeah, my apologies Caieh, for not making it to Kyle's birthday the following day.

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Good to be back. Just hope I can continue this and won't have to change my password again. :-)

Whatever happened to...

TheOne?

Haven't heard from him. Well, it's not like we talk on a regular basis.

But...

Basta, I just hate not knowing anything(?).

Hope he didn't get married.

Yey!

...finally got to finish the East of Eden novel.

Mommy

It’s my mom’s birthday. She would have been 65 years old today.

I don’t remember any birthday celebrations at all coz she passed away when I was only 7 years old.

I feel guilty coz it seems like I have neglected her, forgotten her. I don’t have enough memories to remember her by.

There are even times that I don’t remember her.

But one thing I’m so sure of --- I love her so much!

I thank her for bringing us into this world.

19 years of living without a mom. Sad.

But I’d rather have it this way than to have another mom.

Happy birthday mommy!

I miss my friends.

Waaah!

Tag me ;-)

I decided to add a Message Board to my blog. Funny coz not a lot of people know that I have a blog. I even think that I'm the only one reading this. Save for some who were blog-hopping and who did leave comments (thank you!). So why add it? Wala lang, trip ko lang. Walang pakialaman. Haha! Pang-display lang, hehe!

Seriously, I did inform some of my friends but since maldita ako, maldita rin mga friends ko. "Care ko!" "Eh ano ngayon kung may blog ka?! No time magbasa ng mga nonsense noh!" Get the picture? Haha! Nah, I'm just making these things up. Frankly, I wanted this to be private kaya konti lang nakakaalam and sobrang simple lang ng layout. But since I have not written things here (and will not write things) that would incriminate me --- I'm thinking of "promoting" it. Haha!

Ewan! Bahala na si Batman! If you're one of the "lucky" (wink, wink) ones, meaning you're one of those who knows my blog (hehe!), please feel free to leave a message. Tag me, ok? Thanks! :-)

Welcome back Poching

After almost 3 years of working his ass off in another country, my friend Poch is back! Yey! But since he's not gonna be here for good, I hope we, the Tropang MWE (haha!) get to spend enough time with him. We really missed him and we're gonna miss him once he leaves again. But let's not go into that yet. Right now, I'm crossing my fingers that the trip to his place will push through. Please. No doubt it'll be a blast. So please, let things work out. (I'm not sure who I'm talking to. I guess I'm just thinking aloud. Hehe!)

To my friend Poching, I'm so glad you're back! Mmwah! And you're right! Haven't changed. I'm still your maldita friend. ;-)

Constantine O-U-T!

Constantine is O-U-T! Yahoo! He's the rocker-wannabe finalist in the American Idol show. He probably has a lot of fans here, but I don't care. I just don't like him. Why? I dunno. Maybe it's because I think he's trying too hard to be a rocker. Plus I hate the way he makes pa-cute, the way he stares at the camera. Sorry, I don't really find him cute or good-looking or whatever. And I hate him for ruining Sting's song (this was before the final 12 were announced). Don't get me wrong. I'm no big fan of Bo Bice either. He's the other rocker finalist. But between him and Bo, I go for Bo coz he truly rocks!

Now that there are only 5 of them left, I hope Bo wins or Carrie wins the title. Carrie can really sing and Bo, well, he's really cool (and my sis and I think he looks like Barry Watson). I don't really care since they weren't my original choice. I was rooting for Nadia Turner. The other black girl whose hair had a personality of its own. She may not have the greatest voice but she can sing. She's got style, originality, spunk and for me, she's a great performer. She's just way too cool. Too bad, she got voted out about three weeks ago. I felt bad and thought of boycotting the show, pero my second thought was OA naman diba? Hehe!

Anyways, I'm quite happy now since Constantine was also voted out. Hehe! Please lang, 'wag lang sana si Anthony or si Scott or yung pa-girl na si Vonzell yung manalo (naks! 1st-name basis?...close, hehe!) . I don't really have a say. I'm just hoping the Americans (and the others) will make the right choice.

Singing a different tune

I never really got to blog about my last day in West...so allow me.

I came to work an hour and a half late I think. Took some calls and then spaced out most of the time. A caller wanted some favor and told him it wasn't possible, so he asked for a supe. Be my guest. Get the picture? That was one day I was really excited about going to work; coz I wouldn't be working. I couldn't care less even if I kept on hearing my name being called out since i've been on ACW for 5 minutes or so. The hell with stats. I took all my time and it felt great.

Then my friends and I went to The Providence Tower near La Salle after our shift. We sang and danced the whole day, and I mean the whole day. It was a blast.

I love you guys and I will miss you all.

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Five entries ago, I wrote that I don't wanna work in a call center anymore and that's true. I wanted to go back to Usability testing and be good on that. But I'm really having a difficult time looking for a job. The only job I can find is, what else, Call Center Rep. Well, there are openings for IT or for programmers. But c'mon, who am I kidding? I'm not cut-out to be a programmer. All those I learned from school are --- hmm....what did I learn from school?

So, here I am, back in the call center industry.

To be honest, from the time I resigned from West upto this time, I have not sent out any applications to any company. But my friends did, and they submitted it to a call center in the same building where West is located. Yup, just a few floors below my old office. Haha! I didn't really like to show up for the interview and all. But again, here's an opportunity for me to earn moolah (which I badly need, lol!), so I went and got the job. I know I'm singing a different tune right now and I'm probably misreading the sign again (like what happened with West), but I still accepted the job. I'm not saying that I found my niche in this industry. I'm just here for the money like everybody else. Damn! it's not even that much. Oh well, shoot me for not having a clear mind.

Anyhow, tonight is actually my second day of training and it'll run for 2 weeks. After that, provided I pass the training, will be the real thing.

Call me names. Hate me for not keeping my word/promise. Who knows, I might change my mind (again). Haha!

'di mo lang alam

by indio i

Hindi ako makatulog na hindi ka pinapangarap
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala kong minsan ika’y aking niyayakap
Sa pagdilat ko ay unan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Tuwing ako’y napapalingon, isa lang aking hangarin
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala ko minsan kaway mo’y para sa akin
Yun pala sa iyong kaibigan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
O sana’y, huwag habang buhay
Huwag na magduda, Ikaw lang ang nag-iisang sinta
At kung akala mo hindi kita mahal, Ikaw na ang nananaginip

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

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wala lang, sobrang love ko lang talaga 'tong song na'to (and yung band, tho, nag-disband na sila)

share ko lng :-)

Hmm...

Aha! Got an idea.

I will pull off a Rory Gilmore act and hope to get the same result.

Unlikely.

Oh well. Whatever.

Happy birthday!

Sixteen months and two weeks.

You must have been really pissed off.

We have not talked for 16 long months and 2 weeks. And counting. No text, phone call, IM or email. No communication at all. Oh yeah, I remember that last email I sent you. I poured my heart out into that email. Since you would not talk to me, I figured that was my only chance. I even wrote "I don’t expect to receive any response from u. Bka nga hindi mo rin 'to pagtyagaang basahin pag nakita mong galing saken." And I think that's what you did. You didn't even bother to read the letter at all. Or maybe you did read it. You were just so damn pissed off at me that replying was the last thing that you would want to do at that time.

To be honest, I'm not really sure what happened to that letter of mine and how did you react upon reading it. And I can't say if I even want to know.

I never imagined that someone can shun me off from his/her life. But you did. I must have really hit a sensitive nerve.

If there was one good thing that happened, I found out that I can be strong enough to accept the truth, no matter how much it hurts.

Of course, I still think of you. No doubt about that. Why on earth would I be writing this?! There's just one question in my mind: would you talk to me or ignore me once we bump into each other?

My fingers are crossed.

For now, let me just greet you a happy birthday! And I mean it.

Pathetic

This company really sucks! Big time.

What I hate most about this company are the people who are not doing their job. These people are being paid a big amount of money for doing nothing. Fuck! So unfair.

What they used to do was to pull out agents to do the work for them. These friggin supervisors were saying that their hands were full. Full with what? Bull.

This time around, they can't pull any agents out since the queue is so high that they can't afford someone not to take calls. Fair. But then again, if an agent unfortunately gets a caller who asks for a supe right away, the agent can only do so much right?! Of course, the agent would ask a supe to take the call whether or not he/she was able to pull up the account. And what do they do? They refuse to take the call, which is so not right.

I did get 3 calls today which asked for a supe but I was able to de-escalate them. It's just so pathetic coz the customer actually has the right to talk to a supe. Oh well...

Sorry. I just had to let it out.

I can't wait to get outta here!

Free at last

That's how I feel right now...

After 48 years (ok, I'm exaggerating...but it feels like it), I finally decided to leave. I submitted my resignation letter today. I wanted it to be effective on Feb 4th, but my PTL told me that it should be a two-week-notice thingy. Fine. I'll have to stay until the 11th.

It wasn't easy though. One thing, no replacement yet. I haven't even started looking for a new job. The only thing I'm certain is I don't wanna work in a call center anymore. Been there, done that. One year is enough. Tried it and didn't really like it. I actually commend myself for having lasted this long.

Then there's the much-awaited promotion. To be honest, one of the reasons I accepted this job is the opportunity it promised. I'm a part of batch 1, a pioneer. I clearly remember this guy telling all of us that they would prioritize our batch when it comes to promotions. Of course, it's a given that you should be qualified and all. But what now? There were peeps who got promoted even if they have been on the floor for just about a month or two. I don't have anything against them. For all I know, they probably have met all the qualifications. I just think the management is not fair. I'm mad at myself for believing this monster (forgive me for lack of a better term). Sorry. Ass-kissing is not one of my competencies. I wanna elaborate on this one, but I think I'll pass. Ok, ok. I'll stop this now. Lest, i'll be accused of sourgraping and bad-mouthing the company.

Lastly, my friends. They are the ones holding me back. I enjoy every minute that I spend with these guys. They actually wanted for us to leave all at the same time. They wanted for us to find a replacement first before resigning. Working in another call center is one of their options. Not for me. I'm pretty determined not to work in another call center. I will surely miss all of you, my friends, but we have to move on. Go our separate ways. Who knows? We might bump into each other again sometime. We might not spend much time together, but I really hope that we will all still keep in touch.

In the meantime, wish me luck that I'll soon find a job.

Happy 2005!

Finally!

I have so many things to blog about but so little time. I don't even know where to start. But since it's a new year, I decided my first blog for 2005 would be about the significant and not-so-significant events (?) that have happened in the last 12 months.

Okay, I think this is gonna be long... :-)

January
Not-so-Happy-New-Year
It was the first day of the year and I was not so thrilled! I texted TheOne and greeted him a happy new year but he didn't freakin reply. As in Ni-ha, Ni-ho, Wala! There was no way he didn't get the message coz I was 100% sure that it was sent. There were some friends who didn't text back, but it was different. He was different. He was the first one who texted me last Christmas and I texted him back. So I figured, I would greet him first on new year's day and I did! But why, oh why, did he not reply? I honestly don't have any freakin clue. Fuck! He certainly picked the best date to ignore me. Thank you very much.

Welcome to the world
I have a new nephew and his name is Galo. He's so cute. I think all babies are. :-)

New year, new job
Exactly a month after I resigned from my previous work, I got a text message from the headhunter that I got the job. It happened so fast. I haven't even tried looking for a job yet, but somehow, this headhunter had me in their old files. They called me up on January 16th, took the exam on the 19th and had the final interview on the 21st. That same day, I got the message that I passed. It's funny coz at that time, I told myself that I'm not gonna work in a call center anymore. Flashback: was accepted in a call center and started work Oct 27th. Almost 2 months after, Dec 21st, I tendered my resignation. It was my first time to work in a call center and I was not happy with it. I figured I was not meant for this kind of job. But things do happen for a reason. I was not looking for a job but the opportunity presented itself. It must have meant something right? Fast forward to 2005: a few more days and I'll be celebrating my 1 year with the company - and I still haven't figured out the meaning of all these. Darn! Am I that stupid or shall I blame it on my lack of sleep?

New year, old friends
I got the surprise of my life when I got a text message from Lhet, one of my close friends in college. She went abroad and I didn't know that she was back. Since it has been a while when we last saw each other, as well as the rest of the barkada, we decided to have a get-together. Though we missed Caieh and Jhoan, it was still fun. It was nice seeing old friends again, this time, together with their kids and hubbies. It was only Tere and I who don't have our own families yet. Omigod! Lhet has 2 kids now and I'm still single. Girls, wait for me. :-)

It's good to make new friends, but it's even better if you keep the old ones. Ohh...I just miss these old good friends so much! :-)

February
Guinea pigs
Nothing much happened in Feb except that I started working for West. We first had training and had Americans for trainers. They were nice - well, they should be! After 2 weeks, we started taking calls. The first day was toxic. Most of us didn't even want to go to work the next day. Imagine getting calls about issues you didn't even discuss in training. Some of the trainers were no help at all. Pathetic.

to be continued....hehe!