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From me to YOU:

"You don't come into somebody's life, make them care, then just check out!"

YOU DON'T DO THAT! That's just totally being insensitive.

Screw you!

:(

How can you be so cruel?

Have a heart, dude.

Knock, knock

Miss you much my blog. :)

And i miss you, too.

Happy, happy birthday!

It's about time

In case you’re wondering, NO, I didn’t forget. I know it was your birthday last Sunday. I JUST DIDN’T WANT TO GREET YOU! It’s as simple as that.

What you do (or more like, what you don't do) is not funny anymore. It gets tiring. It gets old.

Sorry, but I think this is really it. Thanks, but no thanks.

A year after

In November 2006, I sent you an email. You said you were surprised and somehow flattered. You even thanked me. Then in February 14, 2007, you greeted me a happy valentine's day thru IM. It was my turn to be surprised, but not flattered. Tried so hard not to cry, but I did. A friend in the office took notice and asked me why. I said I didn't appreciate your greeting me a happy hearts day. She was confused, but I wasn't. I felt that you were just playing with me, with my emotions. You didn't even bother to greet me on my birthday, prolly 'coz you don't remember when my birthday is. But come on, neither did u greet me on Christmas and New Year! And on Valentine's Day you suddenly remembered? Dude, Christmas and New Year are more 'universal' holidays than Valentine's Day! Even those who are not really close greet each other during these times. Honestly, I would have appreciated it more if you had greeted me on these occasions. It's pretty obvious that you did what you did because of that letter. Maybe you were trying to be nice, thought it might make me feel good. WELL, YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT TWICE!

After that incident, pissed-off feeling aside, I can sincerely say that I was able to start letting you go and move on with my life. We stopped whatever little communication we had and it was such a good thing for me.

Present time, February 14, 2008. Today, a year after, you confirmed that what I was feeling exactly the same time last year, with regard to your greeting me, was true. You met my expectation by not greeting me today. Now it's my turn to thank you.

Friday the 13th

Most people say that if a Friday falls on the 13th of the month, you should be more careful because something bad might happen. Some also say that Friday the 13th is an "unlucky" day. Not for me.

You see, after 4 months of not "chatting", he was the first one to send me an IM. That is probably because what he was asking me for was really urgent. Oh well, whatever! I just want to let him know that I was glad he did. Even if he'll just ask me if I can lend him a Vista or Office 2007 CD installer, or if I know someone who's selling his/her laptop, or what does he need to do if his pc is not working, I will surely appreciate it. Heck, maybe even if he says he's getting married, I'd still appreciate it.

I'm pretty resigned to the fact that we will NEVER be a couple. I certainly know that. All I want now is for us to have a "normal" relationship, a "normal" friendship. Hope you're ok with that.

You're at it again

I must say you are doing a great job ignoring me. Not sure if you know me that well, but, you sure know how to ruin my day. Inspite of this, I can't bring myself to hate you. I'm pissed-off but like what one of my friends told me, I'm also a martyr when it comes to you. So sige lang, keep on ignoring me. Who knows, it might help me realize that you're really not TheOne for me.

Whatever happened to...

TheOne?

Haven't heard from him. Well, it's not like we talk on a regular basis.

But...

Basta, I just hate not knowing anything(?).

Hope he didn't get married.

Happy 2005!

Finally!

I have so many things to blog about but so little time. I don't even know where to start. But since it's a new year, I decided my first blog for 2005 would be about the significant and not-so-significant events (?) that have happened in the last 12 months.

Okay, I think this is gonna be long... :-)

January
Not-so-Happy-New-Year
It was the first day of the year and I was not so thrilled! I texted TheOne and greeted him a happy new year but he didn't freakin reply. As in Ni-ha, Ni-ho, Wala! There was no way he didn't get the message coz I was 100% sure that it was sent. There were some friends who didn't text back, but it was different. He was different. He was the first one who texted me last Christmas and I texted him back. So I figured, I would greet him first on new year's day and I did! But why, oh why, did he not reply? I honestly don't have any freakin clue. Fuck! He certainly picked the best date to ignore me. Thank you very much.

Welcome to the world
I have a new nephew and his name is Galo. He's so cute. I think all babies are. :-)

New year, new job
Exactly a month after I resigned from my previous work, I got a text message from the headhunter that I got the job. It happened so fast. I haven't even tried looking for a job yet, but somehow, this headhunter had me in their old files. They called me up on January 16th, took the exam on the 19th and had the final interview on the 21st. That same day, I got the message that I passed. It's funny coz at that time, I told myself that I'm not gonna work in a call center anymore. Flashback: was accepted in a call center and started work Oct 27th. Almost 2 months after, Dec 21st, I tendered my resignation. It was my first time to work in a call center and I was not happy with it. I figured I was not meant for this kind of job. But things do happen for a reason. I was not looking for a job but the opportunity presented itself. It must have meant something right? Fast forward to 2005: a few more days and I'll be celebrating my 1 year with the company - and I still haven't figured out the meaning of all these. Darn! Am I that stupid or shall I blame it on my lack of sleep?

New year, old friends
I got the surprise of my life when I got a text message from Lhet, one of my close friends in college. She went abroad and I didn't know that she was back. Since it has been a while when we last saw each other, as well as the rest of the barkada, we decided to have a get-together. Though we missed Caieh and Jhoan, it was still fun. It was nice seeing old friends again, this time, together with their kids and hubbies. It was only Tere and I who don't have our own families yet. Omigod! Lhet has 2 kids now and I'm still single. Girls, wait for me. :-)

It's good to make new friends, but it's even better if you keep the old ones. Ohh...I just miss these old good friends so much! :-)

February
Guinea pigs
Nothing much happened in Feb except that I started working for West. We first had training and had Americans for trainers. They were nice - well, they should be! After 2 weeks, we started taking calls. The first day was toxic. Most of us didn't even want to go to work the next day. Imagine getting calls about issues you didn't even discuss in training. Some of the trainers were no help at all. Pathetic.

to be continued....hehe!

TheOne

As always, you're the first thought that comes into my mind the minute I woke up. I wonder if you're still awake at this ungodly hour or you're having the best time of your life sleeping.

As usual, I'm having a hard time getting a cab in going to work. I'm wishing that you're among those people driving their car and you'd stop by and ask me to get in and bring me to the office.

I check my e-mail and scan the name of the senders --- coz it's from you, I'd definitely read it first.

Calls, calls.

First break.

More calls.

My phone beeps and I cross my fingers and hope it's from you. Wow! you still remember to text me from time to time.

Lunch.

Calls, calls, calls and more calls.

I can't remember when did we last talk to each other. I wonder what's up with you. Lemme check out your friendster. Hmm, nothing new.

Last break.

Time to space out and dream about you.

Time's up.

Finally, end of shift.

I always pass by Glorietta and I always play these scenes in my mind...I, bumping into you and US having a late lunch or just hanging out in Starbucks.

Or...

I, waiting for the bus (one of my faves from eheads) in Edsa and a car suddenly stopping in front of me and asking me for a ride home. Who else, but YOU!

And when i get home, I login to YM and see that you're online already. I expect us to make small talks.

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As always, you're the first thought that comes into my mind the minute I woke up. I wonder if you're still awake at this ungodly hour or you're having the best time of your life dreaming about her.

As usual, I'm having a hard time getting a cab in going to work. I'm wishing that you're among those people driving their car and you'd stop by and ask me to get in and bring me to the office. Wish some more. You're probably fast asleep coz you're dead tired from bringing her to and from work.

I check my e-mail and scan the name of the senders --- coz it's from you, I'd definitely read it first. Oh yeah, I almost forgot...you're pretty tied up. No time to even check your email. Much more, send one.

My phone beeps and I cross my fingers and hope it's from you. Dang! it's that annoying text msg from Globe again. Man! can't even remember the last time I got a text msg from you.

I can't remember when did we last talk to each other. I wonder what's up with you. Lemme check out your friendster. Hmm, nothing new. You're still In a relationship. Honestly, I do check your page everytime I login to friendster and everytime...you break my heart.

Time to space out and dream about you. --- That's all I can do.

Time's up. --- Will it ever end? My pain, that is. I am no angel and I do admit that sometimes I wish for your relationship to end. But I know how much you love her and hurtful as it is, I still wish you happiness.

I always pass by Glorietta and I always play these scenes in my mind...I, bumping into you and US having a late lunch or just hanging out in Starbucks. But the truth is, I sometimes dread passing by Glorietta coz the scene that keeps playing in my mind is, I, bumping into you and your girlfriend. Enough said.

Or...

I, waiting for the bus (one of my faves from eheads) in Edsa and a car suddenly stopping in front of me and asking me for a ride home. Who else, but YOU! I just wish that you're near Ayala Edsa around 2 or 3 in the afternoon.

And when I get home, I login to YM and see that you're online already. I expect us to make small talks. But then again, you're busy. So I'll just let you be. Don't worry. I've accepted the fact that you can't make time for me.