From batman to slumdog to adopting a kid to...

Went home early last night to watch the Oscars. When Heath Ledger's family accepted the Best Supporting Actor award, my tears started falling. Para akong tanga, haha! Ang babaw talaga ng luha ko! Namiss ko si papa Heath. :( Biglang nag-flashback tuloy yung scene last year when I found out about his death and blogged about it. He was really gone too soon.

Anyways, kahit na malakas mambasag ng trip ang kuya ko ("pinanalo na lang si Heath kasi naawa na lang sa kanya dahil natsugi"), I strongly believe that he deserves the award. Saw the movie on its first day of showing last year and when I got home that night, I could still picture the scenes on my head. He was really credible as the Joker and his take on it was remarkable. Although I'm a big fan of Jack Nicholson, I loved Heath's version of the Joker than Jack's. :) And like what I wrote in my post Missing the Joker, seeing him on that big screen made me forget, even for just a bit, that he was already gone. :)

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Was not surprised that the movie "Slumdog Millionaire" won the best pic. And I wouldn't complain had "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" won. I've seen and loved both movies and even recommended them in my multiply site. Panalo talaga. :) Still, I want to watch the 3 other nominated films.

'Twas such fun to see the whole Slumdog Millionaire crew on stage, especially Ayush, the boy who portrayed the youngest Jamal Malik. I sooo love the kid. Para akong naglilihi. Aaawww, I want one of my own. Talaga lang ha?!? Sige na nga, balik na lang muna ko sa pangarap ko na i-adopt yung kid. :P

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Speaking of adopting a kid, it's not gonna be easy to raise a child by myself. Shempre the child needs a father as well. At dahil dyan, naalala tuloy kita. So what's the real score? Are you STILL single - as in, not in any kind of relationship at all? Or single but not married yet? I'm hoping against hope that it's the former.

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So, get a move on Lil Miss Maldita! Now! Or else...

Missing the Joker

After watching the movie The Dark Knight, this came to mind:

add The Dark Knight as one of my favorite Heath Ledger movies.


Ok, ok. I know it's Christian Bale who plays the title role in the movie, but come to think of it, it should have just been called "The Joker." As far as I was concerned, the movie was about him. Without The Joker, the movie would have been a disaster.

Heath Ledger's take on The Joker is a completely different one. He took the character to a whole new dark and demented level. In one of his interviews, he talked about his character and said "he's going to be really sinister and it's going to be less about his laugh and his pranks and more about just him being a just a fucking sinister guy." And Heath did not disappoint. He was truly disturbing, The Joker, that is.

Let me make it clear.

Heath Ledger was such a talented actor that he made me feel terrified of The Joker. Even before the movie was shown, there was already so much hype about his portrayal. And like I said, he did not disappoint. He delivered a remarkable performance, oh yeah, worthy of an Oscar.

The Joker was truly disturbing. Not Heath. And I'd like to think that he was not disturbed, either. There has been much speculation about the true nature of his death, but for me, it was an accident. Even his co-star in the movie, Gary Oldman, refuted rumors that Heath was emotionally affected by the darkness of The Joker. Oldman said that they are "just people looking for a darker story that doesn't exist."

Almost 6 months have passed since Heath's death, but seeing him on that big screen made me forget, even for just a bit, that he was already gone.

I miss you Sir William Thatcher, my Joker.

Gone too soon

I was brushing my teeth this morning when my dad suddenly blurted out "Sweetheart, patay na yung isa sa mga cowboys." No idea as to who he was referring to, I asked "Sinong cowboy?" "Yung dun sa brokeback mountain," my dad replied.

"Huwaaat? Sino dun? Shyet! Si Jake Gyllenhaal?" I specifically said Jake's name because I didn't want for Heath Ledger to die so soon. Then my dad said "Hindi, yung si Ledger." My heart skipped a beat.

Actor Heath Ledger dies at 28.

I know we're not related (well, we should have been if he didn't pass away so early hahaha), but I was really devastated when I heard the sad news. To quote Mel Gibson, his co-star in the movie The Patriot, "He was just taking off and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss."

Gone too soon.

Truth is, I always get scared when someone young or younger than me passes away. Morbid thoughts cross my mind and I always end up thinking "what if it was me?" I'm afraid to die - there I said it! I'm not ready to leave this world yet. I have so many things I want to do, so many experiences for me to take part of. I have to ask forgiveness from a lot of people, and at the same time, I have a lot of love & happiness to share. I can't leave just yet.

Having said that, I also don't want for people I love to leave so soon. I've experienced the pain of losing a loved one when my mom passed away almost 4 months after I turned 7 years old. I didn't really feel the impact of her passing away until I think I was in high school already. Sure, my dad, brothers and sister were there for me, but it was different not having a mom. I can imagine what Heath's daughter, Mathilda, will go through when she grows up.

Life and death - both are difficult to master. Life, you want to experience more, death, you try to avoid. And yet, when you explore life, this may actually lead you to your death. How ironic.