Goodbye Elliott

Sob. Sob. Sob.


Elliott Yamin was voted off American Idol, leaving Taylor Hicks and Katharine McPhee to battle it out next week. Taylor Hicks is fun to watch and Kat McPhee is a pretty sight, but for me Elliott is the best singer and should be the next American Idol.

Obviously, America thinks otherwise. But it was not that easy for the Americans. Elliott lost by an extremely narrow margin. He received 33.06 percent of the final tally, a record 50 million votes. The other singers got 33.26 and 33.68 percent of the votes. It was that close. Aargh...

Elliott Yamin might not have won the title, but surely, great things are just about to come his way. The end of a good thing is the start of something better.

Goodbye for now, Elliott.

An open letter to my mommy

My dearest mommy,

Hey mommy! Belated happy mother’s day! I’m sorry if I wasn’t able to visit you last Sunday. You know naman that it’s only daddy who knows how to drive (well, Candy knows how but she doesn’t have her license yet and I don’t trust her, hehe) and since it was raining in the morning, daddy decided not to push through with the plan anymore. He’s not getting any younger and with the bad weather and all, it would be hard for him to drive all the way from Paranaque to Marikina. Hehe, isisi ba sa daddy? :-) Anyhow, Angelo, his wife Vina, and the kids, Inna & Luigi were able to make it and they went straight to Paranaque after. And oh yeah, I think you were able to see Galo too coz Angelo said Bwana also dropped by your place. :-)

Well, today is another special day coz it’s your birthday. Happy, happy birthday mommy! :-) So how does it feel to be 66? :-) I'm pretty sure you're missing us up there but then again I know that you're always looking after us down here. I also know that you're always with us, as if you didn't leave at all. It feels great to have our own guardian angel. Hehe!

So what's up? What's summer like in heaven? :D Down here, to say that it's hot is an understatement. It's super duper crazy hot!!! But you know how pinoys are. Sunny/Hot weather=Summer=Beach=FUN,FUN,FUN. Not too many people complaining, which is a good thing. We'll also go to the beach end of the month. It's my first time with a new set of friends, new co-workers, and I'm positive we'll have a good time. :) Oh yeah, don't worry about me, I won't go swimming (since I don't know how hehe) or skinny-dipping (hahaha!), but I'll try to get my feet and my hair wet somehow. Hehehe!

Hey mommy, I need to go now. People here in the office might notice I'm not really working :P Just remember that I love you so much. Please continue to look after us. 'Will talk to you soon.

Love,
Colette

Don't let Elliott go home yet, pls...

I'm a big fan of American Idol and this year I'm hoping Elliott Yamin will end up the winner. He's the short guy with weird-looking ears, hehe, but definitely has a great singing voice. Last night, for his second performance, he sang the song "Home." As usual, I was impressed but I also had the same reaction as Simon's. I was worried that America might send him home because of the lyrics of the song. But Elliott made it clear that he didn't want to go home yet --- I hope the whole America will let him stay --- and eventually win this year's AI. :-)

I reminded my brother last night to not text me the results especially if it's bad news. Well, he texted me alright and he said that I'd be happy with the results. Hmm...

No more ym - that's what they think!

When I got back from lunch today, our IT guy told me that he needed to uninstall the yahoo messenger from my computer. I was like "Ha? Bakeeettt?!?" which was then followed by another question. "As in now na?" He didn't really need to answer my second question coz he was already infront of my helpless pc and was doing his thing (it sounds dirty, but you know what I mean :P). While he was robbing me off my "life," our IT guy told me the reason behind the "robbery." I didn't absorb it though. When he was done, I told him "hindi ako magte-thank you!" and he laughed. I usually say thanks whenever he does something on my pc and that was one thing I didn't appreciate. But hey, life goes on. :-)

Actually, I can still log on to my ym even if it was already deleted from my pc. Ako pa! Hehe! I'm not going to re-install it, there's another way. Hehe! And besides, bawal lang naman pag nahuli eh. Haha!

Bitterly

Bitterly watching a breaking heart
Funny how we never learn
From the very start
Bitterly once, bitterly twice
Over and over again, we roll the dice.

These are the lines that have been playing constantly in my mind. It's been months since I last played that cd and yet, I can still hear Chikoy Pura singing softly in my ears. Talk about LSS.

So am I bitter?

Yes.

I was.

Happy and sad.

Sorry and thankful.

Longing.

Indifferent.

Mixed emotions, baby.

It's all good.

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Bitterly
chikoy pura (the jerks)

Separately living alone in misery
Blindly coping with the pain in my heart
Desperately sitting
In a corner hurting silently
Trying to make a change
But don't know where to start

Together, you and I will be together
But nothing last forever
For hearts made of clay
September, time for me to know
You've got another
Doesn't really matter
I just wished you could have stayed
But I know it's rather late

Bitterly watching a breaking heart
Funny how we never learn
From the very start
Bitterly once, bitterly twice
Over and over again, we roll the dice

Destiny tomorrow is uncertain
It hides inside secretly
Who knows while we're walking
In the streets one day
Constantly living for the day
Although it's empty
Waiting in the dark for the light of day
And dry my tears away

You're at it again

I must say you are doing a great job ignoring me. Not sure if you know me that well, but, you sure know how to ruin my day. Inspite of this, I can't bring myself to hate you. I'm pissed-off but like what one of my friends told me, I'm also a martyr when it comes to you. So sige lang, keep on ignoring me. Who knows, it might help me realize that you're really not TheOne for me.

Knock, knock

:-)

Was just checking if this blog still exists. Hehe! Not making any updates yet but I was surprised to see that there were some unpublished posts. So there...yun na lang muna. :-)

No one's reading this anyway.

Bored

Tic-tac, tic-tac.

Am just waiting for the clock to strike six and I'm outta here.

Sooo bored.

Can't think of any title :-)

Would you believe that I have a total of 6 absences in almost four months? Yep, you read it right. The last one happened yesterday. But, and this is a big but(t), it was unintentional (and so are my other absences). ;-)

It so happened that we didn’t have water and we did order around 7 in the morning but the delivery came around noon already. Sayang, half day na lang sana ako if dumating agad yung water. I’m kinda sad coz I wanted to have a perfect attendance for at least this month. Oh, well…there’s still September, October and so on. Wish ko lang.

I actually got bored at home. I wanted to use the pc but my brother wouldn’t let me since he had a lot of things to do also. I ended up sleeping until around 7pm. Good decision bro, hehe!

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I met with Mathet and Maiden last Friday. We had dinner first and updated each other about our lives. Or it was more like them updating me. Sorry girls. Same old, same old. :-)

I'm also sorry coz I had to leave early. But hey, 'twas really nice seeing old friends again. Can't wait for the next time.

And oh yeah, my apologies Caieh, for not making it to Kyle's birthday the following day.

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Good to be back. Just hope I can continue this and won't have to change my password again. :-)

Whatever happened to...

TheOne?

Haven't heard from him. Well, it's not like we talk on a regular basis.

But...

Basta, I just hate not knowing anything(?).

Hope he didn't get married.

Yey!

...finally got to finish the East of Eden novel.

Mommy

It’s my mom’s birthday. She would have been 65 years old today.

I don’t remember any birthday celebrations at all coz she passed away when I was only 7 years old.

I feel guilty coz it seems like I have neglected her, forgotten her. I don’t have enough memories to remember her by.

There are even times that I don’t remember her.

But one thing I’m so sure of --- I love her so much!

I thank her for bringing us into this world.

19 years of living without a mom. Sad.

But I’d rather have it this way than to have another mom.

Happy birthday mommy!

I miss my friends.

Waaah!

Tag me ;-)

I decided to add a Message Board to my blog. Funny coz not a lot of people know that I have a blog. I even think that I'm the only one reading this. Save for some who were blog-hopping and who did leave comments (thank you!). So why add it? Wala lang, trip ko lang. Walang pakialaman. Haha! Pang-display lang, hehe!

Seriously, I did inform some of my friends but since maldita ako, maldita rin mga friends ko. "Care ko!" "Eh ano ngayon kung may blog ka?! No time magbasa ng mga nonsense noh!" Get the picture? Haha! Nah, I'm just making these things up. Frankly, I wanted this to be private kaya konti lang nakakaalam and sobrang simple lang ng layout. But since I have not written things here (and will not write things) that would incriminate me --- I'm thinking of "promoting" it. Haha!

Ewan! Bahala na si Batman! If you're one of the "lucky" (wink, wink) ones, meaning you're one of those who knows my blog (hehe!), please feel free to leave a message. Tag me, ok? Thanks! :-)

Welcome back Poching

After almost 3 years of working his ass off in another country, my friend Poch is back! Yey! But since he's not gonna be here for good, I hope we, the Tropang MWE (haha!) get to spend enough time with him. We really missed him and we're gonna miss him once he leaves again. But let's not go into that yet. Right now, I'm crossing my fingers that the trip to his place will push through. Please. No doubt it'll be a blast. So please, let things work out. (I'm not sure who I'm talking to. I guess I'm just thinking aloud. Hehe!)

To my friend Poching, I'm so glad you're back! Mmwah! And you're right! Haven't changed. I'm still your maldita friend. ;-)

Constantine O-U-T!

Constantine is O-U-T! Yahoo! He's the rocker-wannabe finalist in the American Idol show. He probably has a lot of fans here, but I don't care. I just don't like him. Why? I dunno. Maybe it's because I think he's trying too hard to be a rocker. Plus I hate the way he makes pa-cute, the way he stares at the camera. Sorry, I don't really find him cute or good-looking or whatever. And I hate him for ruining Sting's song (this was before the final 12 were announced). Don't get me wrong. I'm no big fan of Bo Bice either. He's the other rocker finalist. But between him and Bo, I go for Bo coz he truly rocks!

Now that there are only 5 of them left, I hope Bo wins or Carrie wins the title. Carrie can really sing and Bo, well, he's really cool (and my sis and I think he looks like Barry Watson). I don't really care since they weren't my original choice. I was rooting for Nadia Turner. The other black girl whose hair had a personality of its own. She may not have the greatest voice but she can sing. She's got style, originality, spunk and for me, she's a great performer. She's just way too cool. Too bad, she got voted out about three weeks ago. I felt bad and thought of boycotting the show, pero my second thought was OA naman diba? Hehe!

Anyways, I'm quite happy now since Constantine was also voted out. Hehe! Please lang, 'wag lang sana si Anthony or si Scott or yung pa-girl na si Vonzell yung manalo (naks! 1st-name basis?...close, hehe!) . I don't really have a say. I'm just hoping the Americans (and the others) will make the right choice.

Singing a different tune

I never really got to blog about my last day in West...so allow me.

I came to work an hour and a half late I think. Took some calls and then spaced out most of the time. A caller wanted some favor and told him it wasn't possible, so he asked for a supe. Be my guest. Get the picture? That was one day I was really excited about going to work; coz I wouldn't be working. I couldn't care less even if I kept on hearing my name being called out since i've been on ACW for 5 minutes or so. The hell with stats. I took all my time and it felt great.

Then my friends and I went to The Providence Tower near La Salle after our shift. We sang and danced the whole day, and I mean the whole day. It was a blast.

I love you guys and I will miss you all.

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Five entries ago, I wrote that I don't wanna work in a call center anymore and that's true. I wanted to go back to Usability testing and be good on that. But I'm really having a difficult time looking for a job. The only job I can find is, what else, Call Center Rep. Well, there are openings for IT or for programmers. But c'mon, who am I kidding? I'm not cut-out to be a programmer. All those I learned from school are --- hmm....what did I learn from school?

So, here I am, back in the call center industry.

To be honest, from the time I resigned from West upto this time, I have not sent out any applications to any company. But my friends did, and they submitted it to a call center in the same building where West is located. Yup, just a few floors below my old office. Haha! I didn't really like to show up for the interview and all. But again, here's an opportunity for me to earn moolah (which I badly need, lol!), so I went and got the job. I know I'm singing a different tune right now and I'm probably misreading the sign again (like what happened with West), but I still accepted the job. I'm not saying that I found my niche in this industry. I'm just here for the money like everybody else. Damn! it's not even that much. Oh well, shoot me for not having a clear mind.

Anyhow, tonight is actually my second day of training and it'll run for 2 weeks. After that, provided I pass the training, will be the real thing.

Call me names. Hate me for not keeping my word/promise. Who knows, I might change my mind (again). Haha!

'di mo lang alam

by indio i

Hindi ako makatulog na hindi ka pinapangarap
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala kong minsan ika’y aking niyayakap
Sa pagdilat ko ay unan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Tuwing ako’y napapalingon, isa lang aking hangarin
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala ko minsan kaway mo’y para sa akin
Yun pala sa iyong kaibigan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
O sana’y, huwag habang buhay
Huwag na magduda, Ikaw lang ang nag-iisang sinta
At kung akala mo hindi kita mahal, Ikaw na ang nananaginip

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

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wala lang, sobrang love ko lang talaga 'tong song na'to (and yung band, tho, nag-disband na sila)

share ko lng :-)

Hmm...

Aha! Got an idea.

I will pull off a Rory Gilmore act and hope to get the same result.

Unlikely.

Oh well. Whatever.

Happy birthday!

Sixteen months and two weeks.

You must have been really pissed off.

We have not talked for 16 long months and 2 weeks. And counting. No text, phone call, IM or email. No communication at all. Oh yeah, I remember that last email I sent you. I poured my heart out into that email. Since you would not talk to me, I figured that was my only chance. I even wrote "I don’t expect to receive any response from u. Bka nga hindi mo rin 'to pagtyagaang basahin pag nakita mong galing saken." And I think that's what you did. You didn't even bother to read the letter at all. Or maybe you did read it. You were just so damn pissed off at me that replying was the last thing that you would want to do at that time.

To be honest, I'm not really sure what happened to that letter of mine and how did you react upon reading it. And I can't say if I even want to know.

I never imagined that someone can shun me off from his/her life. But you did. I must have really hit a sensitive nerve.

If there was one good thing that happened, I found out that I can be strong enough to accept the truth, no matter how much it hurts.

Of course, I still think of you. No doubt about that. Why on earth would I be writing this?! There's just one question in my mind: would you talk to me or ignore me once we bump into each other?

My fingers are crossed.

For now, let me just greet you a happy birthday! And I mean it.