I miss my friends.

Waaah!

Tag me ;-)

I decided to add a Message Board to my blog. Funny coz not a lot of people know that I have a blog. I even think that I'm the only one reading this. Save for some who were blog-hopping and who did leave comments (thank you!). So why add it? Wala lang, trip ko lang. Walang pakialaman. Haha! Pang-display lang, hehe!

Seriously, I did inform some of my friends but since maldita ako, maldita rin mga friends ko. "Care ko!" "Eh ano ngayon kung may blog ka?! No time magbasa ng mga nonsense noh!" Get the picture? Haha! Nah, I'm just making these things up. Frankly, I wanted this to be private kaya konti lang nakakaalam and sobrang simple lang ng layout. But since I have not written things here (and will not write things) that would incriminate me --- I'm thinking of "promoting" it. Haha!

Ewan! Bahala na si Batman! If you're one of the "lucky" (wink, wink) ones, meaning you're one of those who knows my blog (hehe!), please feel free to leave a message. Tag me, ok? Thanks! :-)

Welcome back Poching

After almost 3 years of working his ass off in another country, my friend Poch is back! Yey! But since he's not gonna be here for good, I hope we, the Tropang MWE (haha!) get to spend enough time with him. We really missed him and we're gonna miss him once he leaves again. But let's not go into that yet. Right now, I'm crossing my fingers that the trip to his place will push through. Please. No doubt it'll be a blast. So please, let things work out. (I'm not sure who I'm talking to. I guess I'm just thinking aloud. Hehe!)

To my friend Poching, I'm so glad you're back! Mmwah! And you're right! Haven't changed. I'm still your maldita friend. ;-)

Constantine O-U-T!

Constantine is O-U-T! Yahoo! He's the rocker-wannabe finalist in the American Idol show. He probably has a lot of fans here, but I don't care. I just don't like him. Why? I dunno. Maybe it's because I think he's trying too hard to be a rocker. Plus I hate the way he makes pa-cute, the way he stares at the camera. Sorry, I don't really find him cute or good-looking or whatever. And I hate him for ruining Sting's song (this was before the final 12 were announced). Don't get me wrong. I'm no big fan of Bo Bice either. He's the other rocker finalist. But between him and Bo, I go for Bo coz he truly rocks!

Now that there are only 5 of them left, I hope Bo wins or Carrie wins the title. Carrie can really sing and Bo, well, he's really cool (and my sis and I think he looks like Barry Watson). I don't really care since they weren't my original choice. I was rooting for Nadia Turner. The other black girl whose hair had a personality of its own. She may not have the greatest voice but she can sing. She's got style, originality, spunk and for me, she's a great performer. She's just way too cool. Too bad, she got voted out about three weeks ago. I felt bad and thought of boycotting the show, pero my second thought was OA naman diba? Hehe!

Anyways, I'm quite happy now since Constantine was also voted out. Hehe! Please lang, 'wag lang sana si Anthony or si Scott or yung pa-girl na si Vonzell yung manalo (naks! 1st-name basis?...close, hehe!) . I don't really have a say. I'm just hoping the Americans (and the others) will make the right choice.

Singing a different tune

I never really got to blog about my last day in West...so allow me.

I came to work an hour and a half late I think. Took some calls and then spaced out most of the time. A caller wanted some favor and told him it wasn't possible, so he asked for a supe. Be my guest. Get the picture? That was one day I was really excited about going to work; coz I wouldn't be working. I couldn't care less even if I kept on hearing my name being called out since i've been on ACW for 5 minutes or so. The hell with stats. I took all my time and it felt great.

Then my friends and I went to The Providence Tower near La Salle after our shift. We sang and danced the whole day, and I mean the whole day. It was a blast.

I love you guys and I will miss you all.

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Five entries ago, I wrote that I don't wanna work in a call center anymore and that's true. I wanted to go back to Usability testing and be good on that. But I'm really having a difficult time looking for a job. The only job I can find is, what else, Call Center Rep. Well, there are openings for IT or for programmers. But c'mon, who am I kidding? I'm not cut-out to be a programmer. All those I learned from school are --- hmm....what did I learn from school?

So, here I am, back in the call center industry.

To be honest, from the time I resigned from West upto this time, I have not sent out any applications to any company. But my friends did, and they submitted it to a call center in the same building where West is located. Yup, just a few floors below my old office. Haha! I didn't really like to show up for the interview and all. But again, here's an opportunity for me to earn moolah (which I badly need, lol!), so I went and got the job. I know I'm singing a different tune right now and I'm probably misreading the sign again (like what happened with West), but I still accepted the job. I'm not saying that I found my niche in this industry. I'm just here for the money like everybody else. Damn! it's not even that much. Oh well, shoot me for not having a clear mind.

Anyhow, tonight is actually my second day of training and it'll run for 2 weeks. After that, provided I pass the training, will be the real thing.

Call me names. Hate me for not keeping my word/promise. Who knows, I might change my mind (again). Haha!

'di mo lang alam

by indio i

Hindi ako makatulog na hindi ka pinapangarap
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala kong minsan ika’y aking niyayakap
Sa pagdilat ko ay unan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Tuwing ako’y napapalingon, isa lang aking hangarin
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan
At ang akala ko minsan kaway mo’y para sa akin
Yun pala sa iyong kaibigan lang

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
O sana’y, huwag habang buhay
Huwag na magduda, Ikaw lang ang nag-iisang sinta
At kung akala mo hindi kita mahal, Ikaw na ang nananaginip

Paano ko sasabihin sa iyo
Ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko
‘Di mo lang alam, Ikaw ang tanging buhay ko
Kung alam mo lang, Ikaw lang ang iniibig ko

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wala lang, sobrang love ko lang talaga 'tong song na'to (and yung band, tho, nag-disband na sila)

share ko lng :-)

Hmm...

Aha! Got an idea.

I will pull off a Rory Gilmore act and hope to get the same result.

Unlikely.

Oh well. Whatever.

Happy birthday!

Sixteen months and two weeks.

You must have been really pissed off.

We have not talked for 16 long months and 2 weeks. And counting. No text, phone call, IM or email. No communication at all. Oh yeah, I remember that last email I sent you. I poured my heart out into that email. Since you would not talk to me, I figured that was my only chance. I even wrote "I don’t expect to receive any response from u. Bka nga hindi mo rin 'to pagtyagaang basahin pag nakita mong galing saken." And I think that's what you did. You didn't even bother to read the letter at all. Or maybe you did read it. You were just so damn pissed off at me that replying was the last thing that you would want to do at that time.

To be honest, I'm not really sure what happened to that letter of mine and how did you react upon reading it. And I can't say if I even want to know.

I never imagined that someone can shun me off from his/her life. But you did. I must have really hit a sensitive nerve.

If there was one good thing that happened, I found out that I can be strong enough to accept the truth, no matter how much it hurts.

Of course, I still think of you. No doubt about that. Why on earth would I be writing this?! There's just one question in my mind: would you talk to me or ignore me once we bump into each other?

My fingers are crossed.

For now, let me just greet you a happy birthday! And I mean it.

Pathetic

This company really sucks! Big time.

What I hate most about this company are the people who are not doing their job. These people are being paid a big amount of money for doing nothing. Fuck! So unfair.

What they used to do was to pull out agents to do the work for them. These friggin supervisors were saying that their hands were full. Full with what? Bull.

This time around, they can't pull any agents out since the queue is so high that they can't afford someone not to take calls. Fair. But then again, if an agent unfortunately gets a caller who asks for a supe right away, the agent can only do so much right?! Of course, the agent would ask a supe to take the call whether or not he/she was able to pull up the account. And what do they do? They refuse to take the call, which is so not right.

I did get 3 calls today which asked for a supe but I was able to de-escalate them. It's just so pathetic coz the customer actually has the right to talk to a supe. Oh well...

Sorry. I just had to let it out.

I can't wait to get outta here!

Free at last

That's how I feel right now...

After 48 years (ok, I'm exaggerating...but it feels like it), I finally decided to leave. I submitted my resignation letter today. I wanted it to be effective on Feb 4th, but my PTL told me that it should be a two-week-notice thingy. Fine. I'll have to stay until the 11th.

It wasn't easy though. One thing, no replacement yet. I haven't even started looking for a new job. The only thing I'm certain is I don't wanna work in a call center anymore. Been there, done that. One year is enough. Tried it and didn't really like it. I actually commend myself for having lasted this long.

Then there's the much-awaited promotion. To be honest, one of the reasons I accepted this job is the opportunity it promised. I'm a part of batch 1, a pioneer. I clearly remember this guy telling all of us that they would prioritize our batch when it comes to promotions. Of course, it's a given that you should be qualified and all. But what now? There were peeps who got promoted even if they have been on the floor for just about a month or two. I don't have anything against them. For all I know, they probably have met all the qualifications. I just think the management is not fair. I'm mad at myself for believing this monster (forgive me for lack of a better term). Sorry. Ass-kissing is not one of my competencies. I wanna elaborate on this one, but I think I'll pass. Ok, ok. I'll stop this now. Lest, i'll be accused of sourgraping and bad-mouthing the company.

Lastly, my friends. They are the ones holding me back. I enjoy every minute that I spend with these guys. They actually wanted for us to leave all at the same time. They wanted for us to find a replacement first before resigning. Working in another call center is one of their options. Not for me. I'm pretty determined not to work in another call center. I will surely miss all of you, my friends, but we have to move on. Go our separate ways. Who knows? We might bump into each other again sometime. We might not spend much time together, but I really hope that we will all still keep in touch.

In the meantime, wish me luck that I'll soon find a job.

Happy 2005!

Finally!

I have so many things to blog about but so little time. I don't even know where to start. But since it's a new year, I decided my first blog for 2005 would be about the significant and not-so-significant events (?) that have happened in the last 12 months.

Okay, I think this is gonna be long... :-)

January
Not-so-Happy-New-Year
It was the first day of the year and I was not so thrilled! I texted TheOne and greeted him a happy new year but he didn't freakin reply. As in Ni-ha, Ni-ho, Wala! There was no way he didn't get the message coz I was 100% sure that it was sent. There were some friends who didn't text back, but it was different. He was different. He was the first one who texted me last Christmas and I texted him back. So I figured, I would greet him first on new year's day and I did! But why, oh why, did he not reply? I honestly don't have any freakin clue. Fuck! He certainly picked the best date to ignore me. Thank you very much.

Welcome to the world
I have a new nephew and his name is Galo. He's so cute. I think all babies are. :-)

New year, new job
Exactly a month after I resigned from my previous work, I got a text message from the headhunter that I got the job. It happened so fast. I haven't even tried looking for a job yet, but somehow, this headhunter had me in their old files. They called me up on January 16th, took the exam on the 19th and had the final interview on the 21st. That same day, I got the message that I passed. It's funny coz at that time, I told myself that I'm not gonna work in a call center anymore. Flashback: was accepted in a call center and started work Oct 27th. Almost 2 months after, Dec 21st, I tendered my resignation. It was my first time to work in a call center and I was not happy with it. I figured I was not meant for this kind of job. But things do happen for a reason. I was not looking for a job but the opportunity presented itself. It must have meant something right? Fast forward to 2005: a few more days and I'll be celebrating my 1 year with the company - and I still haven't figured out the meaning of all these. Darn! Am I that stupid or shall I blame it on my lack of sleep?

New year, old friends
I got the surprise of my life when I got a text message from Lhet, one of my close friends in college. She went abroad and I didn't know that she was back. Since it has been a while when we last saw each other, as well as the rest of the barkada, we decided to have a get-together. Though we missed Caieh and Jhoan, it was still fun. It was nice seeing old friends again, this time, together with their kids and hubbies. It was only Tere and I who don't have our own families yet. Omigod! Lhet has 2 kids now and I'm still single. Girls, wait for me. :-)

It's good to make new friends, but it's even better if you keep the old ones. Ohh...I just miss these old good friends so much! :-)

February
Guinea pigs
Nothing much happened in Feb except that I started working for West. We first had training and had Americans for trainers. They were nice - well, they should be! After 2 weeks, we started taking calls. The first day was toxic. Most of us didn't even want to go to work the next day. Imagine getting calls about issues you didn't even discuss in training. Some of the trainers were no help at all. Pathetic.

to be continued....hehe!

Birthday girl

Yey! It's my birthday! :-)

Another year older, another year wiser.

It's a holiday coz it's my birthday! :-)

Birthday countdown

Yaiks!

One day to go before the big day...

Wonder what will happen tomorrow! :-)

Patience is a virtue

"Patience is a virtue."

That's one trait I would love to learn but as the saying goes you can't teach an old dog new trick. I will definitely win as the most impatient person in the world. I easily lose my temper and when that happens, I don't even want to be near myself.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I've heard the comment "ang liit-liit pero kung magalit akala mo kaya magpatumba ng napakalaking tao" or something along those lines not only from my friends but from my family as well. To be honest, I hate myself when I'm mad. It's like I'm being possessed by an evil spirit. One thing, I curse a lot --- my dad would probably slap me in the face once he hears me utter those words. I also tend to break or destroy things. And when I'm really, really angry and I'm trying to control my emotions, I always end up crying.

And I hate that.

I hate myself.

I hate myself coz I hate a lot of people right now.

Hope this day ends NOW...

TheOne

As always, you're the first thought that comes into my mind the minute I woke up. I wonder if you're still awake at this ungodly hour or you're having the best time of your life sleeping.

As usual, I'm having a hard time getting a cab in going to work. I'm wishing that you're among those people driving their car and you'd stop by and ask me to get in and bring me to the office.

I check my e-mail and scan the name of the senders --- coz it's from you, I'd definitely read it first.

Calls, calls.

First break.

More calls.

My phone beeps and I cross my fingers and hope it's from you. Wow! you still remember to text me from time to time.

Lunch.

Calls, calls, calls and more calls.

I can't remember when did we last talk to each other. I wonder what's up with you. Lemme check out your friendster. Hmm, nothing new.

Last break.

Time to space out and dream about you.

Time's up.

Finally, end of shift.

I always pass by Glorietta and I always play these scenes in my mind...I, bumping into you and US having a late lunch or just hanging out in Starbucks.

Or...

I, waiting for the bus (one of my faves from eheads) in Edsa and a car suddenly stopping in front of me and asking me for a ride home. Who else, but YOU!

And when i get home, I login to YM and see that you're online already. I expect us to make small talks.

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As always, you're the first thought that comes into my mind the minute I woke up. I wonder if you're still awake at this ungodly hour or you're having the best time of your life dreaming about her.

As usual, I'm having a hard time getting a cab in going to work. I'm wishing that you're among those people driving their car and you'd stop by and ask me to get in and bring me to the office. Wish some more. You're probably fast asleep coz you're dead tired from bringing her to and from work.

I check my e-mail and scan the name of the senders --- coz it's from you, I'd definitely read it first. Oh yeah, I almost forgot...you're pretty tied up. No time to even check your email. Much more, send one.

My phone beeps and I cross my fingers and hope it's from you. Dang! it's that annoying text msg from Globe again. Man! can't even remember the last time I got a text msg from you.

I can't remember when did we last talk to each other. I wonder what's up with you. Lemme check out your friendster. Hmm, nothing new. You're still In a relationship. Honestly, I do check your page everytime I login to friendster and everytime...you break my heart.

Time to space out and dream about you. --- That's all I can do.

Time's up. --- Will it ever end? My pain, that is. I am no angel and I do admit that sometimes I wish for your relationship to end. But I know how much you love her and hurtful as it is, I still wish you happiness.

I always pass by Glorietta and I always play these scenes in my mind...I, bumping into you and US having a late lunch or just hanging out in Starbucks. But the truth is, I sometimes dread passing by Glorietta coz the scene that keeps playing in my mind is, I, bumping into you and your girlfriend. Enough said.

Or...

I, waiting for the bus (one of my faves from eheads) in Edsa and a car suddenly stopping in front of me and asking me for a ride home. Who else, but YOU! I just wish that you're near Ayala Edsa around 2 or 3 in the afternoon.

And when I get home, I login to YM and see that you're online already. I expect us to make small talks. But then again, you're busy. So I'll just let you be. Don't worry. I've accepted the fact that you can't make time for me.

Another baby boy in the family

Yey!

I've got a new nephew. His name is Nathaniel (his parents haven't decided yet on a second name) and he was born last Tuesday, Nov 16th. He's so cute and he looks like my brother. May cleft-chin pa (trademark daw ng mga gwapo sabi ng kuya ko, haha!) .

Lakas talaga ng dugo ng daddy ko.

I have six brothers and now I already have three nephews and one niece.

Hmm...I wonder if I'm gonna have a baby boy also for my first child. :-) It doesn't really matter whether it's a boy or a girl just as long as the baby is healthy.

Not again

We were supposed to go to Puerto Galera tomorrow to have our long-delayed team building but because of our "factory-worker salary" plans have again changed. Arrgh!

I'm not happy. I'm getting frustrated.

When will we ever have a "real" team building?

Power-tripper

Was on my way home and was waiting for the bus to leave when a group of MMDA officers (those in blue) signalled to the driver to open the bus. The driver politely told the leader of the group that there was already an officer in the bus. The leader got irked and raised his voice. I didn't really get it at first, but it turned out that the driver was refusing to give them a free ride. This made the man in blue madder. He was shouting at the poor old man and bullying him. He called the driver "madamot" and even threatened to hit him. I think what made him so pissed off was because the old driver was so composed. He was just trying to explain that he'd be reprimanded by their Inspector if there are a lot of officers in the bus. But the jerk-in-blue would not listen. He even said "tingnan lang natin pag nagkita tayo sa Almar...kung makaasta ka ng ganyan"... or something to that effect. The other officers just told him to let it go and so he got off the bus. I saw him talking to the conductor of the bus. I was not sure if he was also giving him a piece of his mind. Kupal talaga. Umaapila pa ata, ayaw pa sumuko.

Truth is, I wanted so much for the jerk to hit the poor old guy coz I wanted to report him and have him arrested. But it's a good thing he chickened out also. Takot lang nya dahil andami namin sa bus na makaka-witness ng kagaguhan nya.

I hate those kind of people.

I'd be a hypocrite if I say that I don't like getting favors. But I would know if there's a need for it and I would not force someone to do me a favor if he/she is not willing to do so.

One needs to know that most of the time, NO means NO.

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Had lunch with the "dead" guy earlier. He said that it was just his way of making lambing to his friends and he didn't think that the joke would be taken seriously. Weird. If I wanted to make lambing to my friends, I wouldn't "kill" myself. And how can someone not take death seriously? Oh well.

A very bad joke

It was almost four in the morning and our shift was about to start when the news broke out that a friend had died in a car accident. Text messages were sent out to friends confirming the bad news. Naturally, we cried when we found out. I was trying not to cry since we have not yet verified if it's true or not but I was already having goose bumps all over my body. I usually feel this if something is not right so I was not able to control my tears. I cried.

It turned out that it was just a joke. A very bad joke. It was not even funny at all.

The guy was just trying to find out if his friends would cry for him once they found out that he's gone. I don't really know if that was just it or there's a deeper explanation, but one thing's for sure --- I don't wanna buy it. I'm sorry dude but it was really uncalled-for, it was so not right. I don't really know how to describe it.

I hope and pray that you're not gonna do it anymore, or do anything of the same kind, or worst do something that would really hurt you. I am telling you right now --- a lot of people will cry, will be hurt and will feel pain once something bad happens to you. I just hope you know why.

Trinity Kayl

"Done. 10:38 lumabas. Gcng ako all throughout. Girl!!"

Got that text message from Kaka a lil past 11am. She finally gave birth. Yup, finally. She's been waiting forever to get the cute lil girl out of her tummy. As in ireng-ire na sha pero hindi pa feel ng baby lumabas. Mana na agad sa mommy --- pasaway! Pasaway naman talaga ang mommy coz while she was in labor she even managed to send text messages. It's as if she was not feeling any pain at all. Add the fact that she was awake all throughout. Brave girl that. But of course knowing Kaka, she was not just brave but she was also her naughty self. Haha! Censored na pag pinost ko dito yung text message nya.

Am happy for my friend and at the same time I envy her. She now has two beautiful kids - a boy and a girl. Her eldest, Baron Tristan or Ethan is actually my inaanak. I'm not really sure where Kaka got the name Baron, but I'm pretty sure where she got Tristan. The baby girl's name is Trinity Kayl. I was really touched to find out that my friend didn't change the name of the baby. A month before she was about to give birth, we were pissing each other off in chat. As in inaasar namin ang isa't isa sa YM. As a result, my friend said that she'd name her baby Trisha Kayl instead coz she said that Trinity is such an ugly name plus it reminds her of my Christian name. So I was really surprised when I found out that she didn't really change the name. Kaka just said that para makapang-asar. I must admit I did feel bad, but it didn't last. It's her kid anyways and she still named her Trinity Kayl. Hehe!

I love kids and I actually wanna have one now, but I know it's not yet time. So I'm just gonna be content first with my niece, nephews and of course all my inaanaks. And to Kaka and Dudie, congratulations!