Happy Anniversary (not!)

This post is dedicated to ThePope.

Today is actually our first anniversary. It's been a year since I first saw you and decided that you were the one for me. Ironically, that was also the last time I saw you in the flesh. No, you didn't go abroad or worse, pass away. You just continued living a life you had always known - a life without me.

As for me, I tried to spice up mine. I pretended that you are a part of it, or rather, that you are going to be a part of it. Don't get me wrong. I didn't go around telling everyone that I was in a relationship with you. That's something I wouldn't have the guts to do.

Lemme make it simple.

All I did was try to get to know you. And boy did I find bits and pieces of info about you! I know when your birthday is, where you live (well, not exactly!), where you went to school, who your ex-gf was(!), your friends, your hobbies and interests. A true-blue stalker, am I not? Haha!

That's how I stumbled upon the song, Such Great Heights by The Postal Service. Frankly, I've not heard of them. But when I learned that you were fond of this particular song, I googled them and checked out their songs. I must admit, I still don't know the song by heart. Actually, hindi ko masabayan yung beat at yung phrasing, hehe! With that being said, I still liked it and put it in my Zune. But of course! :)

Well, that's not all. I also found myself reading the books you like. Which reminds me, I still have to finish Dante's The Inferno. See, that's not too bad. At least you influenced me to start picking up a book and read again. :)

To cut this short, I taught myself to adapt. Adjust. So that, when time comes that we finally meet again and be together, at least, we'll have something in common, or something to talk about. I just want to make it clear - NO, I am not forcing myself to like things just because you like them. I know I don't really have to.

One long year. A year of hopeful pining. Still not giving up on you.

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Here's the video and the lyrics of the song I was talking about. I'm thinking it must be the lyrics that made ThePope like this song! Or maybe not. :)

Such Great Heights
The Postal Service

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home




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And here's one of my current favorite songs. I loved it the first time I heard it being played on ThePope's favorite radio station. This song has ThePope written all over it. :)

The song's title is I will possess your heart by Death Cab for Cutie. This is probably the longest song I've ever heard. Even longer than Eraserheads' Ang Huling El Bimbo. But El Bimbo has got lyrics from start to finish, whereas, more than halfway into the song, that's the only time you'll hear Ben Gibbard (vocalist) singing. Still, the song just blows me away. I love the melody or the instrumental or whatever musical term you call it. It's so intense! And the lyrics - hit right smack into the heart! Plus Ben Gibbard sings it so beautifully! Incidentally, I found out that he also is the vocalist of The Postal Service. Hmm...such coincidence :)

Did I say I love this song? :)

I will possess your heart
Death Cab for Cutie

How I wish you could see the potential,
the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound,
but in a language that you can't read just yet
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window,
I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective,
when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart

You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily

You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart

Don't trust nature

Let me share with you a conversation I had with my good friend Che thru YM. This is the part where we talked about ThePope. Real names were replaced with their alias so I can still save my face. Hehehe!

che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:38:26 PM): stalk natin si ThePope, hahha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:39:33 PM): hahaha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:39:44 PM): hay naku, hanggang dun nlng nga ako eh
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:40:00 PM): hahahah
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:40:03 PM): pocha, ung friendster nya dati gsto nya ma-meet "anyone alive"
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:40:14 PM): pocha ngayon patay na ang gsto ma-meet =))
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:40:17 PM): nampocha gurlet..kelan pa tayo magaasawa????
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:40:25 PM): hahahhaa
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:40:27 PM): hahhhahha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:40:32 PM): 24 plang nman ako eh
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:40:37 PM): :)
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:40:49 PM): hahhaha
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:40:59 PM): sabagay, ako nga 26 pa lang, hahhahah
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:41:26 PM): hahahaha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:41:32 PM): ayan natututo ka na :P
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:41:40 PM): hahhhahaha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:41:46 PM): pero seriously pocha di ko na alam gagawin ko kay ThePope
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:41:48 PM): what time kyo aalis?
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:41:52 PM): hahah
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:02 PM): mahirap bang pasagutin?
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:42:04 PM): hndi ko alam if i'll let nature take its own course
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:07 PM): :P
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:18 PM): naku, don't trust the nature
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:42:22 PM): or dpat ko bang pakialaman ang destiny ko at magpakilala na tlga ako sa knya =))
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:31 PM): may sariling mundo ang nature, madalas harsh, hahah
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:42:42 PM): hahhaha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:42:44 PM): korak ka jan
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:46 PM): pakilala ka na
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:42:58 PM): kaso super stalker nman labas ko nun
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:42:58 PM): yung pa-demure effect, bwahahha
che_dc26 (7/4/2008 4:43:11 PM): hindi kaya
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:43:23 PM): pocha
colette_51 (7/4/2008 4:43:57 PM): tangina pare natatawa parin ako sa don't trust nature =))

Don't trust nature.

That remark really made me laugh. And then it hit me. Yeah, I should not let nature take its own course. If I want something that bad, I should work my ass off to achieve it. But then again, does it also apply to matters of the heart?

Think about this:
People often say kung tayo para sa isa't isa, tayo talaga. Such a cliche. Don't they realize that without effort, destiny is useless?

Hmm...pero balik tayo sa nature. This also came to mind "when nature calls, it's always a bad thing right?" Ayan na, I think I need to go. Nature is calling me since I can't stop from laughing. :P